Celebrate that Hole!

There she is!

People will drive by and see the fence and maybe even peer down into the hole and not realize the significance of a long 20 years to get here.

So to celebrate, I went with Clay via detour to San Luis Obispo :)

We stayed at the cutest bed and breakfast:)

He is the best

I am part real excited and part making myself excited. I try hard to look on the upside but lately it's felt like a hail storm of doubt. I reach up in prayer and just hope my words are not just floating to the ceiling and popping like a bubble...

After our romantic stop in SLO, I headed over to Phoenix to see my Mom.

But only got a picture of Peppers looking like a she could be in ad for PetCo...haha

Took Daniel and Ella to see Mission:Impossible with Grandma and thought about the Burbank sunset and time I had with Clay amidst the heatdome of 115 degrees:)

Summer is just flying by and I don't feel like I have anything to show for it:(

But you know, I'm sure I do....I'm just having a hard day today.

I want to stop worrying.

I want to stop feeling so reactive.

I ordered Dan Harris' book about meditation.

Maybe this is the thing that could help me most.

I had this dream last night where a woman was there asking me about my meeting agenda for the YW. And I kept saying, I have done this, I know how to do this. And she kept saying she wanted to see it....and then I just broke like a damn.

Yelling in my dream...why does this matter? this doesn't matter!

And then my friend Karen came in and hugged me and we walked away and I kept saying....I'm so tired, I'm just so tired.

I woke up and felt everything.

Was it a release or just a dream informing me that I am just tired of unnecessary demands put upon me.

This is when I wish the sensitivity knob on my sprit would turn down....

but it's at 11 :)

oh, and Chester broke his toe

and him and Audrey are sick and coughing...on July 18th.

L I F E

am I right?

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