I want to say rather loudly... "make them stop growing up!" Clay says... "I can't wait to see what they become or do" And I'm like...maybe? Sometimes I miss them cuddling up to me on the couch. Sometimes I miss that immediate gratification of motherhood. Motherhood for me has been my greatest calling on earth. Full stop. The challenges involved and the joys involved have built my confidence and self esteem like no other experience. And I've had to tear down and rebuild a lot of the time :) I never went into this thinking somehow I knew all the things I should do or all the things I would be as a mother. For instance, as a designer I thought I would care a whole lot about what they wore or how they looked (especially at church when they were little)! Turns out I valued their individuality, creativity and independence way more than styling them. I have come to find out there was no set path for all of them to follow but if there was a recipe that I ha